What were you doing a year ago?

Can you remember what you were doing a year ago?  If you had stopped and written a letter to your future self, what would you have said?

This is special week for us, this time last year, we were down in Victoria celebrating my sister’s wedding, and entering the second week of the dreaded two week wait to find out if our latest round of IVF had been successful.  Then this same week two years ago, I was 24 weeks pregnant with Liam and admitted to hospital until he arrived… this time three years ago, we were finding out we were pregnant with our twins – but that’s a story for another time.

Going back to last year, it was our seventh embryo transfer, so unfortunately we had become all too familiar with the process, and knowing what signs to look out for that may indicate a positive or negative result.

Aiden's first photo - 5 days 'old'

Aiden’s first photo – 5 days ‘old’

During the early days of the two week wait, I’d allowed myself a rare moment of positivity and checked what my due date would be, if the transfer was successful.  I knew it was going to be late July,  what I was not prepared for was a due date of the 21st of July 2013 – Amber and Riley’s due date had been the 20th of July 2011 – I admit to having mixed emotions about that, but tried to take it as a positive sign.

Throughout the second week I’d had my suspicions –  I’d had the day of nausea, and a huge wave of exhaustion had began to overwhelm me, both of which happened early on in my previous two pregnancies.  Always the pessimist I kept telling myself it was all in my head – because then if it wasn’t successful it would be easier to deal with if I hadn’t gotten my hopes up right?!? Even when three home pregnancy tests were positive, and I received the phone call from our nurse confirming positive blood test results, the news didn’t fully sink in.  Whilst we were extremely happy and excited to be expecting a baby (why else would we have gone through IVF?), there was a sense of apprehension and even fear, about what was going to happen next, would I have similar complications as my previous two pregnancies, would I need to be on hospital bed rest again, would we have another premature baby?

Twelve months on and instead of over analysing every twinge I have, and praying each time I give myself another injection that it’s helping our baby grow, I am instead sitting here  listening to our happy and healthy (and not to mention gorgeous – biased I know!) five month old chatting up a storm.  Upstairs our equally gorgeous 21 month old is still fast asleep.  If someone had of told me this time twelve months, or even two years ago that we would be in this position, I would have never believed them! Throughout our journey into parenthood there have certainly been times when I felt like we’d never have two healthy babies at home with us. I feel incredibly blessed to have our two beautiful boys..  It’s amazing how much can happen in a year – and how fast it can go!

Out for lunch for Melbourne Cup

Out for lunch for Melbourne Cup

What were you doing this time twelve months ago?

Linking up with Essentially Jess for IBOT

24 thoughts on “What were you doing a year ago?

  1. My P1 (now 6) is an IVF success story so I can relate to every word. I really wish I had a photo of her embryo slide.When they showed it to me at the clinic it was a surreal experience – perhaps due to the hormones. It seemed to be just bursting with life. Somehow I knew she was going to make it. Seven years down the track there’s no stopping my flamboyant little strawberry blonde diva.
    Congratulations on your gorgeous family.

  2. What a ride it must have been and I love hearing success stories – IVF really is such an amazing gift. If I could write a letter to myself last year it would be to work less, spent more time with your 1 year old because soon he’ll be 2 and driving you all sorts of (awesome) cray cray! Em

  3. Funny you should talk about your experiences of impending parenthood over the last few years… Jade found a little gadget at Aldi for transferring video and camcorder footage onto the PC. We found some beautiful footage of Cameron as a baby, and of course there’s no show without punch, Sarah started hounding us to find her “videos”. Well, let me tell you, I could’ve sat there watching and listening to my two little ones over and over again, it was so precious! However, just 1 year ago, Cameron had had his Student for a Day experience at his new school and couldn’t wait to start (and I was freaking out about how much it was going to cost) and Sarah was excited about being part of “Senior” school next year! It amazes me everyday when I think about how many “years” have passed since some of the kids milestones. I’ve been a school mum for 5 years now, over 7 years since the kindergarten journey began, 7 years since we said goodbye to nappies. Time disappears too quickly, capture as many special moments as you can… being able to watch, listen and reflect years later is priceless!!! xxx

    • Wow, I can’t believe how grown up your kids are (gosh that makes me sound old!). I can remember you guys telling me about Cameron’s new school at tiffs wedding. You will have to give me the details about the device that you guys got, I’d love to transfer some if our videos. Hope you guys are all well – you will have to plan a Qld holiday soon xx

  4. Gosh what a year for you Lauren – that’s an incredible story! This time last year I had just arrived back from Europe and was trying to get back into the swing of work… and failing miserably!! I was still wanting to be drinking wine and eating tapas instead of working!!! 🙂

  5. What an awesomely amazing year! This time last year, I was similarly anxious, but for a different reason – we’d discovered that our then 5-month old had some problems and it was all very scary and worrying. 12 months on, she’s a cheeky, hilarious toddler and while there are still some questions over her health, we’re in a much happier place 🙂

    • You have to love a cheeky toddler, as frustrating as they can be, they seem to always know how to bring a smile to your face! I hope all is going well with your daughter, I can’t imagine how scary it must have/is been xx

    • I’m so sorry Claire xx. Grief is so deeply personal and all consuming it can make it very hard to see any light. I’m so glad you have supportive friends and family. Sending you a big hug xx

  6. I like this question and I like your answer. So delighted to see you have two beautiful baby boys from the struggle you had to go through. You are right so much happens in a year but yet a year is really so short as they fly by. Therefore it is brilliant to remember those precious moments in posts like this. #IBOT

  7. What an awesome story! I have a July baby too, they are definitely little characters, although my baby is now 4!
    This time last year I was still getting over a breakdown in family relationships and a major friendship breakdown. I’m now glad that I don’t have those people in my life anymore. It’s amazing how good you feel after getting rid of toxic influences.

  8. Congrats on your babies. My two boys are pretty much the same age, 22 months and 6 months. It is fun now but those first couple of months are hectic! This time last year I was still coming to terms with the fact I was pregnant again already. It took us 6 years first time around then 1st period…surprise! Wouldn’t have it any other way now though 🙂

    • Thank you Kate. Yes, the first few months are a bit crazy, but we seem to be getting there. That’s wonderful it didn’t take you long to fall pregnant, thank you for sharing xx

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